Have I Mentioned?

That these meds keep me WIDE AWAKE late at night?

Because they do... it's almost 1:30 in the morning and I'm not even close to tired... but you'd know I was sleepy if you could see how often I'm correcting my typing!

I'm working my way through AFI's top 100 Movie (original list) and I have one of the movies I'm not really interested in playing in the background right now. It's my second movie of the night and with the was I'm feeling, there could possibly be a third.

*sigh*

Work is going to be tough tomorrow...

I Feel

-calm but excited...
-nervous but intrigued…
-sad but motivated…
-anxious but calm…

There is so much going on in my brain that I can't actually seem to focus on any one piece of it at a time.

I hurt my back last Monday and I'm so angry and frustrated over it but at the same time God is opening up this door for new possibilities in my future and I don't think my brain can actually wrap around what can happen.

At the same time I can't help but think about it… to pray that I do a good job listening to Him and not just trying to do for me.

And I know none of this really makes any sense at all unless you're one if the like 5 people who know all if the truth that I'm just not ready to put out for the world yet; but I'm on these meds for my back and they make it so hard to sleep so I somehow find myself here and I'm confusingly rambling and I'm sorry for the crazy stuff coming from my fingertips I promise I'll explain what I can when I can if I can maybe someday when I'm making more sense…

This Is How I Die

Death by Civil War Reenactment.



A couple of weeks ago my friend R and I went to the Farmer's Market by the Courthouse on the downtown square of the town I live in. We were surprised as we walked from where we parked... there was gunfire... musket fire? What???

Random Civil War reenactment! The very first that I've been to where people "die"!! I was SO excited... so here's the abbreviated story of this battle according to my friend R:

Apparently the Northern troops at some point had captured and set up a base in the courthouse... then the Southern troops came and took it back. 3 days later, the Northern troops came back and took it for the rest of the war.

However.... the reenactment stopped after the Southern troops took it back (the south will rise again?) and I may have quietly whispered "don't worry boys, we come back to win this whole thing" and maybe my friend R started trying to teach me to properly say "y'all" because right around the time the northern troops were "captured" random people in the crowd who were not participants in the reenactment started yelling "Kill the Yankees!!", "Shoot 'Em!!", "Shoot the Yankees!!". Also there was this particular gentleman reenacting General Nathan Forrest Bedford.....

They wanted us gone. Want us gone?

Death by reenactment...

Royalty

I'm laying in bed right now too awake to sleep but too tired to do much else. My sleep playlist is on my iPod and I'm yawning like crazy.

Tonight I saw American film royalty. There's no other way to describe it. I went with my fried R to TPAC to see a very brand new musical called The Nutty Professor. It was fantastic! The music was great, the cast phenomenal… the set design was gorgeous.

Today was the 8th time it was ever performed (although it will be heading to Broadway in the future.

The show is based off of a 1963 movie with Jerry Lewis, and Jerry Lewis directed this musical. And today after the bows from the cast and the applause and cheering from the audience, JERRY LEWIS WALKED ONTO THE STAGE!!!!!!

I think I'm still a bit in shock.

He was… is… more impressive and genuine and funny than any trendy popular current actor.

Yes. Just Yes.

I don't often like to just give you guya a link to another blog. But today I just have to. I read this this morning and it spoke so true to my life. To my soul...

Being single in church............ read this....

Old Friends..

Can you imagine us years from today, sharing a park bench quietly...

My roommate is, I think, confused by my love of Simon and Garfunkel music. But with lyrics like that, can you blame me? It's like cleverly written movies. I love the beauty in the finely crafted words.

And after writing that sentence I'm still going to try to blog? *yikes* This blog, I'm sure, will be nowhere near as well written and put together as Simon and Garfunkel songs or Alfred Hitchcock movies. But I will still try:

I can't believe, dear friends, that I neglected you for almost whole month. I'm so sorry. I just looked and realized that I haven't blogged here since June 27th! Wow. I kept on "meaning" to and then continued on with my life. I'm not proud of me, but I have been living more. Doing more. Attempting to do more for me or because of me... and maybe failing at it less? Maybe... Maybe I just think I am.

I'm going to boot camp 3 days a week and getting the courage up to go outside and walk/run. I'm going to our town Farmer's Market when I'm able to and working on making smart choices when I grocery shop. I haven't seen many of my friends as often as I like, but I'm comfortable in the fact that I'm an adult and don't have to cram in all of my "friend" time together in the summer months.

Sometimes I miss those easy summers......

Wordless Wednesday