Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Wordy Wednesday

What? No photo for today? I know... I always do one and who knows, maybe I'll put one up later. But for today, I really wanted to share something fun (not that my photos aren't fun). On today's date 25 years ago my very favorite football team, Da Bears, won the Superbowl!! I still remember watching it (I was 5!), I also remember this:

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Cookie Preparation

Hazy shade of Winter


That’s how I feel lately, blogging friends… sleepy… can you relate? I don’t know if it’s the dreariness of the hazy shade of winter we’re living in or my still adjusting to my new work hours or God trying to put me through a spiritual growth spurt, but I want to spend more time sleeping than normal. The funny thing is, is that I have so much I want to do and need to do that I end up staying up too late and sleeping in too late and while I’m still on time to work, I cut it close sometimes…

I was e-mailing with my former roommate A recently and it prompted me to blog and after typing part of the way into my first paragraph, I decided on this blog title and it prompted me to look at the lyrics for the song it’s from (do you love my train of thought so far? Ha!) and I was stunned by the lyrics I could sing along with, but not off the top of my head:

Time, time, time, see what's become of me
While I looked around
For my possibilities
I was so hard to please
But look around, leaves are brown
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter
(Hazy Shade of Winter- Simon & Garfunkel)

I love when lyrics hit home (even when it’s not in a good way). I admit to being someone of a music geek. Not to the extent of some of my friends who can tell me facts about artists or songs (while I can certainly do that with some) but still, I love music. I love that God created music and that he gave it to us to enjoy and to praise Him with.

See what’s become of me, while I look around, for my possibilities.

I’ve been doing better with this since I blogged about it last time. Since the lyrics on my friend G’s blog hit my like a 2x4. But still it’s something I struggle with and I wonder if more people don’t since there are so many song lyrics about life passing us by while we wait for it to happen? Surely I’m not alone in this even though at times I feel very much alone.

Ooo… I’ve come full circle in my own thought process! Sweet! (for those of you who haven’t spent face to face time with me… welcome to what I’m like. Haha!)

Feeling very much alone. This is something I have been feeling at times lately. Not always, but still, it’s there. But it’s not just a ‘I should call friends and make plans’ kind of lonely… no… it’s deeper. And whenever it happens, I hear God saying “am I really enough for you, dear one?” He is my Creator, Sustainer, the Maker of all things and He is who I rely on most of the time. Most? That’s not enough. I know that where I am now in my life I can rely on Christ. I live by myself and majority of the time, God is the only one I have to talk to without picking up a phone; and let’s be honest, now that my job entails answering phones so much, I don’t want to talk on one afterwards. But is that true reliance? I can’t help but wonder in those times… in the lonely times… if I really rely on God in a way that will carry through my life even after, no, especially after I’m married and have kids… Which I’ve blogged about desiring before.

Sometimes I hold that back, too. I realized that last night when R and I were talking while she was helping me bake. She is one of my best friends and she made me realize that I never ever talk about wanting to get married. And I don’t… I know that. I think a big part of that is that I don’t want to be ‘that girl’. The single girl in her 30’s who doesn’t talk about anything else? Her. She can drive me nuts and I don’t want to do that to other people!! It would be mean! ;o) But I want to be transparent… maybe not completely on here, but with friends? Definitely. Especially best friends. She and I have known each other for about 2.5 years and she said she can’t remember ever having a conversation with me about my desire for marriage in my future…

Don’t read this and think that I’m lonely and need a husband or more friends or need to be closer to family… while those are fun options, it’s really just another part of that spiritual growth that makes me sleepy (just like a kids physical growth does). I really just want to use all of these feelings and emotions to grow closer to God.

And I really don’t want to be the girl defined by her desire to get married.

I want to stand out for who I am, not who I want to be.

Monday, January 24, 2011

80. Have a photo I’ve taken that I love turned into a canvas for my wall.

Here is the original photo... I took it at Audubon Park in New Orleans when I was there for my birthday last year...
And here it is on canvas:
I was so excited when I opened up the box to see this 16x20 1.5 in thick gallery wrap canvas, and I don't think photos do it justice (mostly because the lighting in my house is odd)! But on top of the awesomeness that is the canvas is the awesomeness of the price! Thanks to Groupon I got it for $25!!! That included shipping! Sa-weet!!! I still don't know where I'm going to hang it (this spot actually holds a different painting) but I thought for effect I needed to see it up somewhere =o) AND on top of all of that, I have several people wanting to use this photo to make their own canvas which just feels like such a huge compliment... yay! I'm lovin' this memory of a fun birthday trip =o)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thursday’s Thoughts

Hello, Blog Friends =o) I’ve been so blog silent since the start of the year, and there is no excuse for it (although like any human being, I want to make excuses! Ha!) Can you believe that its already the 20th of January!! It feels like the new year just started; matter of fact, I’m still writing 2010 a lot. I’m working on it though…

So… things that have happened this year…. hhmmmmm…

I spent New Year’s Eve alone this year for the first time since I moved to Tennessee in 2004. I still wasn’t feeling too great and knew deep down that what I really wanted to do was rest and not be social. So, I pulled out a few of the movies I own (meaning a stack of them so I’d have options) and watched a couple while laying on the sofa bed that I pulled out just for the occasion! And around 11:20 I promptly fell asleep. I woke up around 1 to a phone call from a friend for the traditional New Year’s “Happy Birthday!”, put on another movie and fell asleep all over again. It was fantastic.

That next week started my official first week in my new job at the financial institution I still work for. L-O-V-I-N-G it! I get to work my favorite hours with an awesome team and I’m looking forward to all the new stuffs I’ll get to learn because of it (it’s already starting and sometimes I feel o-so-lost, but I know it will get better!) =o)

Then some stuff happened, and some other stuff… and then I had some meetings and webinars for work and then I… OH!!!

Then I went to the Symphony! I really enjoy the Nashville Symphony a lot and am on one of their ‘friends of the symphony’ e-mail lists and for Thanksgiving they sent (as a thank you) an e-mail code for $20 tickets! Orchestra Right, to be exact. The Schermerhorn center is beautiful and I think they have the best acoustics of any auditorium that I can remember going to. You can go here to see my photo of the day from that day.

Then… we had a Tennessee Blizzard! I got about 3 whole inches of snow with some of my friends getting around 6.5 to 7 inches. I know that it’s not really a lot of snow to my northern blog friends, but for Tennessee? Several schools closed for the entire week! But it was beautiful, and I got to go out and take some fun photos in my backyard (because work closed early). It looks like we’re going to be getting more today still a Tennessee Blizzard, but they’re only predicting 1-3 inches… Still, I have my ‘salt’ ready for my hilly driveway.

THE BEARS ARE 1 GAME AWAY FROM THE SUPERBOWL!!!!! Am I excited? Haha… What can I say, I’m a fan. Have been, probably since birth. =oD but I really enjoy watching them play and even more so when they’re winning and they’re doing so very well! Since I don’t have any photos to attach today, I’m going to leave you with a Supergreat, Superfunny, Superneat video… enjoy!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Feeling Drained…

…and torn down.

Pray for me today blogging friends. I need them. For some reason I’m having a hard time blocking doubts and questions and negativity… I’m praying about it, too, but I can always use more!

Thank you, dear Blogging Friends!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I know, I know...

It's 2011 and I'll I've posted so far is 1 Wordless Wednesday. What's wrong with me?? haha... Well, I won't bore you blogging friends, so I'll sum up. I traveled for Christmas, not getting home until close to the New Year, I was sick (for a couple of weeks) and I've been trying to pack up Christmas and restore some order to my house now that I'm better. Well, mostly better... I still find myself getting tired easily and I'm praying that wears off quickly.

So, all that to say, I haven't had the energy to blog much. And while it seems easy to get on a computer and type, after working during the day (and hopefully working out afterwards) all I want to do is hang out and watch a movie or read. *sigh* I'm ready to have energy again!

I had plans though, plans for a New Years blog filled with things I want to do this year and plans and goals, but then I read this blog by Donald Miller (one of my favorite authors) about it not necessarily being a good idea to share them, and I think the statements about why it isn't are good ones. So I've decided to keep them close and let you know that at any given time, you have an idea of my goals since last February when I wrote a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days. I'm progressing pretty well, and I'll try to do an update blog on its 365 day anniversary =o) But until then I promise to try to blog more (really!) and keep up better with Wordless Wednesdays and suggest to you that you check out my friend Rachel's new blog titled A Year In Music. I've been enjoying it very much since it started on 1/1/11!!